Switching on the lamps, all three, setting the light just right
Filling up my water pitcher in anticipation of all who will drink from it
The ritual of opening my office door when the buzzer rings
Fluffing my pillows
That feeling of surprise when I greet you in the waiting room
The moment you sit down on the couch and settle in
Your curiosity about the book resting on my side table
The way the sun beams into the room at 3:00
My plant
Watering my plant
Turning my plant towards the sun
You asking me if I’ve always had that plant
The commute, and I never thought I would
When the 1 comes just in time to transfer at 14th
The mutual complaining of subway delays
Sharing our appreciation of a good outfit
Reading your body language
The guy in my building that kinda knows me but never says hello
Checking my mailbox
Walking up 9th Street
Buying flowers from the deli
Constant flow of people coming and going in the building
Not having to wear headphones during our sessions
LifeThyme Market’s lemon chicken
Human bodies
An afternoon chocolate break
The kettle that boils the water just right for afternoon tea
The distance between us, chair to couch, chair to chair
When you get up to refill your water during a particularly emotional moment
Sirens interrupting us momentarily
A midday walk around the block
Clocks
Suitemates
Fake flowers in the hallway
The first time we meet in person
Exploring dreams
Being better able to focus
My work shoes
Having different conversations
Locking up
Blair Casdin, LCSW, is a graduate of the Manhattan Institute for Psychoanalysis. At MIP, she is founder and former co-editor of the Analysis Now blog, co-chair of the Colloquium Committee, and teaches Ethics in Psychoanalysis and Dreams I. Blair is faculty and supervisor at the Institute for Expressive Analysis where she teaches Basic Clinical Concepts. She is in private practice in New York City.
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